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Feeling Guilty

So, Mother’s Day…hmmm…not feeling particularly motherly today.  Started off at work at the crack of dawn (literally…I begin work at 4am).  Home by 9am with donuts in hand for almost all of us.  ALMOST all of us because my sweet Nick is gluten intolerant (we think).  Long boring story short–Nick has had crazy bouts of whatever he eats running right through him (to put it delicately.)  After eliminating dairy and that still not helping…we thought “maybe gluten?”

So, we decided to eliminate gluten for a while and see what happens.  Easier than a doctor visit and all that that entails, right?  How naive we were!

We discovered, much to all of our surprise, that all of life’s greatest joys–food-wise–contain gluten.  Wonderful treats like home-made chocolate chip cookies, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, Pop-Tarts for crying out loud–all contain gluten!

So he has been eating plenty of tuna fish, hot dogs (no bun), ham, turkey, eggs, fruit and anything else I can think of that contains no gluten, and still no dairy–just to be on the safe side.  The good news is it seems to be working.

The bad news?

My boys all wanted donuts this morning.  Our favorite donut on this planet?  Maple bars!  So, I bought half a dozen of those plus 6 assorted others and headed home to begin the rest of my day with a maple bar.  Good plan, right?

Well, of course I wasn’t going to be cruel and eat Nick’s favorite donut in front of him.  I was going to wait until he was busy playing a video game or otherwise disposed.  What do they say about the best laid plans??

I walk in the door and Nick was fast asleep on the couch.  YES!  So, I get a tall glass of ice water and the best donut in the known world, sit down in my favorite chair and take a bite.

And then I hear it.

The sweetest voice in my world asking, “What’s that?”

As quickly as I could I answered truthfully, ” A donut but you can’t have one because it will make you sick.”  And then I added, “But I will get something just for you later.”  That seemed to placate him as he fell back to sleep.

So, my wonderful husband took him to the store later and he got a candy bar–completely gluten free!

And yet, I still felt like I had somehow cheated on my son–is that even possible?? I know he will have to deal with this lack of gluten like he deals with everything else-and so will we-but this one seems especially tough.  Do I ban gluten from all of our diets?  Do I sneak treats behind his back?

And why am I always left with more questions than answers when it comes to parenting this very special boy?



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Motherhood Lessons

Things My Mother Taught Me:


How to laugh at life….

That siblings ARE a gift of from God…

That you can get up again and again after falling…

That there are more important things in life than things…

That the pain you experience as a mother is nothing compared to the joy you receive…

That mothers are fallible…

and that some mistakes can never–in this lifetime–be fixed.

Things Being A Mother Has Taught Me

Children don’t necessarily comprehend sarcasm (thankfully).


That siblings TRULY are a gift from God…

That you will do anything you can to help them get back up each time they fall….

That I wouldn’t give up seeing my son’s first smile, laugh, step, etc. for all the riches on this earth…

That the joy you experience as a mother is beyond comprehension until you become a mother….

That my children are more forgiving than I am fallible….amazing…

Finally that I wish my mother was still on this earth so I could ask her for forgiveness….

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Here’s Nick!

So my first actual blog and here is a picture of my boy Nick…Nicholas…Niko-pop…Niko-Popo-Rocko Boy.  He has many nick names(pardon the pun!)   I swear though, that if you heard us talking to him on a daily basis you would think his name was really “Nick are you alright?” because we ask him that at least 20 times a day.  He has a peculiar habit of not chewing his food properly, so he tends to choke.  Not to mention his almost falling what seems like a gazillion times a day.  And if we are not in the same room with him and hear a sudden crash, we automatically yell it out.  We have asked it so much that, whenever he does fall, he calls out, “I’m ok!”

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